i'm in college!

and there are no tears, just pity and fear.

 It's only a month before I leave for college, which is sooooner than ever. I won't see my room again until Christmas.  But summer has been treating me well.  

1. free death cab show courtesy of channel 104.9

2. getting lost on summer nights

3. stargazing tomorrow  and light graffiti tonight 

4. summer retreat at mission springs

5. baayf 

6. warped tour x 2 

7. macbook pro baby! + itouch 

8. working a lot of hours has its pros and cons

9. 

10.

But summer has also told me what mm how do I say this. The people who mean the most to me, and who I mean the most to? That sounds awkward.  Christine told me this quote, "Friendships are for a reason, a season, or a lifetime." Haha I love love the awkward moments when you see someone you're "friends" with at a store/restuarant/ more specifically frutti and oh it's super great. 

Ben Gibbard is a lyrical genius.  (Chris Walla as well.)

"as we peeled the freckles from our shoulders"

"the sugary smell of springtime" 

"And there are no tears, just pity and fear."

I really enjoy carrotsticks. 

Hello!
so far, the best news of the year: BLINK IS BACK.
yes, Blink 182 is back. It's middle school all over again,
and I'm stoked. Should be touring this summer. I'm
thinking warped, but there are also rumors of a tour
with greenday, and I'm not sure how I feel about that.
Greenday has put out some pretty balllin records, but they're
getting old. It has been way too long since American Idiot.
Oh noooo. Yes. If Blink does play on warped, it would be a
only a 20 min show, which is not what they deserve.
Headlining tour please. So many tours to start the beginning
of the year, too bad I can't go to any. I'm missing the Take Action
tour w/ Meg & Dia, Anarbor, and Every Avenue, the farther
from earth world tour w/ Jacks and Matt Nathanson. I missed
Jacks on his last Hammers and Hearts tour. It makes me very sad that
I will miss this one as well. But! We Shot the Moon will have to suffice.
And maybe Mae! Haha but Mae isn't the same without Rob and Mark.
1. My cellular phone is slowly falling apart.
2. I bit into a nasty pepper bagel today. It was the worst thing ever.
3. I'm writing my Hamlet paper on frailty, and I should start.
4. I went to the library today during lunch and started reading Love in the Time of Cholera.
5. I need a haircut.

adios.

Heeeey y'allllllllll

destination: beautiful

My LMU college app is due tomorrow, and I still have over
half short answers to do. I'm listening to This Time is The Last
Time- Mae. I wish I had a cup of coffee right now, but coffee at
12:04 am probably isn't a good idea if I plan on sleeping in a few hours.
Listening to old Mae makes me nostalgic. I just talked with Carol
about this. It reminds me of the beginning of high school, when I
started listening to them. Reminds me of all the people
I depended on, and now are no longer here (figuratively).
The Everglow by Mae was probably my first ever
favourite cd I bought. Or was it Two Lefts Don't Make A Right
But Threee Do by Relient K. I bought that album when I was still in middle
school. Wow, hello second semester senior. Needless to say, senioritis
has already hit me, even with my AP Stats quiz tomorrow that I am
no where near ready for. And now I'm finding out that job hunting
brutal. Ok, not brutal, but pretty hopeless. I've applied to coffee shops
(just about all of them), ice cream shoppes, game stop
(hell yes, ok. I'm desperate), and all the other places I could think of.
I am in need of some money, and fast. Partly because I cannot control myself
from these cheapy wholesale aa stores, and also Johnny Cupcakes.
Speaking of Johnny Cupcakes, his last minute pizza party in SF was
excellent. It was amazing to see around 300 people in line reppin
their JC shirts waiting to meet him. Unreal. I just bought the
black gringham tshirt, and the oven mitt one. There goes all my money.
Along with the navy windbreaker and cranberry hoodie I got at aa.
I haven't blogged in a while, but reading other blogs somewhat inspire
me to share my thoughts. I haven't really shared with you my thoughts,
more of what I spent my money on, but that's ok. I can't believe this
Christmas went by so fast. I can't think of a time I've felt more consumed
by high school than now. If I reflect on the past years I've been at Lynbrook
High, I see myself growing stronger each year, but also falling harder.
I am 17. I don't know what to do with my life. I feel like everyday is a game
and I lose constantly. I think it's just late, and my mind is running all over
the place. I'm going to brush my teeth. Goodnight.

But first, here are some pictures


Johnny Cupcake SF Pizza Party


Downtown ice skating "under the palm trees"


Me and some crazy



goodbye, and goodnight.